護家中心 – 舒安
Dad, Please Forgive Me HFRC – Sean
Dad, I blamed you for all unhappy things in my life…..
You didn’t care about me. You never asked if I got along with other people? Did teachers like me? What kind of friends I had in school? Have I ever been bullied? At home, you never engaged in conversations with me and mother. Whenever there was a problem in our family, you would just yell and scold mother. Our financial situation was failing because you followed unwise advice to buy a new car to start your own business. But you did not work hard in it to make money. I was admitted to a good college but was forced to withdraw since we could not afford the tuition. I was very upset at your addiction in the mahjong gamble. Did you know that I felt so lonely growing up and dragged my feet going home?
Only until I studied in seminary where the Bible taught us to forgive; then I tried to forgive you. I now realized that you were instilled with old traditional definition of a husband’s primary responsibility was to make money supporting the whole family, nothing else. There was no teaching to let you learn how to become a loving husband and father. Being the eldest son, you carried a heavy burden for your parents at a young age. When life got tough, you escaped to mahjong for emotional relief and unfortunately got addicted.
Dad, I have forgiven you, now that I experience life in the real world being a husband and a father myself. I pray to God every day to grant you wisdom to receive Jesus so that you will have peace and joy like I do.
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